Catch Up...

Ok so I'm pretty sure I finished my last post PROMISING that I wouldn't take forever to update the next time. Well here we are the next time and its been a little while...ok a LONG while.  Sorry about that! It's hard work being a mommy! So here is a quick catch up of what has been going on.

Cambric just turned 5 months a week ago! What an amazing 5 months it has been! Hard, but amazing! Going back to work was tough and still is tough being away from him for so long but he is doing great! It was hard till about a few weeks ago. He wasn't sleeping good at daycare and would come home exhausted and would sleep almost from the time we got home till the next morning (besides waking to eat of course - piggy). I cried a lot of tears because I hated that my time with him was just watching him sleep. Well now that Cambric is rolling to his tummy to sleep, he gets in some good naps at school, therefore we get some good mommy/son time each day when we get home.

People have asked how I do it. How do I leave my baby each day to go to work. Well first off I love my job. Not as much as my sweet boy but I do love it. That first week was tough, but I soon realized something... Cambric goes to daycare where he is loved on by many people. I was told that if the women up there wore lipstick then he would have lip marks all over him every day! :) He is loved by me & Troy at home. So Cambric is getting plenty of love. But some of my kids may not be getting that love at home. So it's my job as their teacher to not only teach them academically but to teach them morals, values, and to love on them! And they are pretty cute so its not hard!

Anyways back to my chubby bubba! He is doing awesome! He is the most smiley baby! Always happy. Ok, not always! Not when he's hungry. If you want to see him cry, just be around when I can't feed him quick enough! He has his daddy's temper, and perhaps his mommas! He is a laughing maniac and loves Molly! He finally figured out that she is awesome! I can't wait till he is a little older and starts bugging the tar out of her! He is starting to sit up when we put him in the right position and does TONS of baby crunches cause he so badly wants to do it himself! It's quite cute....until he projectile pukes all over everything from working his tummy too much! That dang Acid Reflux drives me nuts. Everyone keeps saying he should outgrow it around 6 months. Here we are at 5 months and a week and I don't see any improvement! I can't wait for the day of no more medicine and no more smelling like baby puke all day! It's a dream I think of often! ;) Just like my dream of taking a bath without having to talk baby talk the entire time!

He's pretty cute, so I can't complain!

Can I tell you how much I hate the new mom laughs. You know, that laugh that says "HA, she is a new mom and doesn't know what on earth she is doing!" Well guess what. Your right. I don't! But I think I'm doing a pretty stinking good job anyways! I do things the way I feel is right for me and my family! I look up tons of information on the internet and ask hundreds of questions through my baby groups and in the end, I do what is right for US! Not what was right for everyone else, but for US!

Yes I breastfeed and I LOVE it! Now if you would have asked me that the first 6 weeks I would have said NOOOOOOO! But I honestly love it! I can't explain it but I can't imagine not doing it. I'm just waiting for the day that someone says something to me in public about breastfeeding. I hear horror stories about women being asked to feed in the bathroom or to stop all together. The first time someone asks me to feed Cambric in the restroom, first off I will probably sit in awe for a good minute and then I will let them know that they can go sit their big fat butt on the toilet and eat since they believe it's ok for me to feed my child on the toilet! Ya, don't even get me started on that!

Yes my child is NOT sleeping through the night. He pretty much was until we transitioned him from his Rock N Play to his Pack N Play. He was starting to sit up in it so we knew it was time to move him to something more stable. So my nights include me getting up about 2-3 times. I decided that I eat when I want, so if Cambric wants to eat at 4am then I will feed him at 4am!  No, its not ideal but guess what. If I don't care, then why should anyone else. I am so tired of getting the judgmental looks and comments. I know plenty of women who their children have been sleeping in their own room, in their crib for a long time and they are still not sleeping through the night so why is it such a big deal that Cambric isn't. And yes we co-sleep a lot too! And I LOVE IT! I know I'm creating a bad habit but I will deal with it later on. I'm enjoying treating him like a baby now and snuggling him every night. I am away from him for 9 hours a day. I just hate being separated from him any more. Again, if I don't care, then I don't understand why everyone else has to care and judge too!

At this very moment Troy is trying to get Cambric to reach out to him! We have both been trying to get him to come to us! All I know is I better be the first person he reaches out for! Later on in life, he can love us equally but right now since I provide all his nourishment and pump 2 times at work for him, I deserve to be favored! Just saying! ;)

Have I mentioned what a great dad Troy is! Well he is! He does so much to help me out, from cleaning the bottles, to picking up my mess, or just entertaining the baby so I can finally blog. He is quite the catch! Don't know what I would do without him to keep me laughing during those early post-pardum days. I am getting a little annoyed with him keep coming up behind me while I'm holding the baby and pulling my pants down! Now thats getting a little old!

Ok well I think I have bored you enough for one post! I will TRY (won't promise this time) to update soon! I have all next week off! YAY! Let's hope I get something accomplished! ;)

HAHAHA Mom said she was going to accomplish something! That's funny!

Desert Song

Well its been a while! Sorry about that! Its hard work finding time to write a new post when your baby likes to be held a lot! And there is nothing wrong with that....at least right now there isn't. Ask me again when he's 7 years old and still wants to be held by his momma.... Yes that was me! The kid with the legs hanging down on the ground while I broke my parents backs! :) Anyways....

I have had lots of times where I thought "I'm gonna write a blog on that." Well guess what I have no clue what any of them were because I have a serious case of mommy brain! But so far I don't think mommy brain is as bad as pregnancy brain! But yesterday I got an email from my mom about a beautiful song that I love & I knew I needed to write about this and do it before I forgot! :)

I first heard this song after a few months of Troy and I trying to get pregnant. In the beginning it was a powerful song to me but every month that passed by it became more and more real to me and helped me through the things I was dealing with. If this song was sung during worship, you better believe you would have seen me bawling my eyes out! First listen to this girls blog (YOUR GONNA CRY) and then listen to the song (THEN YOUR GONNA CRY SOME MORE).

Pretty amazing story isn't it! I honestly don't know what I would have done in Jill's (the singer) situation but I am pretty sure that I couldn't be as strong as her! It kind of makes all my little trials and tribulations seem pretty insignificant! And boy does it make me feel so thankful and blessed that I have healthy little baby!

I am sure you can see why I love this song! As I said as every month passed by I would listen to this song over and over in the car, reminding myself that it was just a season in my life and that God was  still the same God that he had always been. I would get through it because God was there! The devil really attacked me during that time in my life and this song would remind to proclaim that No Weapon Formed Against Me Would Prosper.  The first time I heard this song after I found out I was pregnant you better believe I still bawled but it was with a big ol smile on my face.

Then I had Cambric and BOY OH BOY are the baby blues real! I think they say 80% of women have the baby blues and if you are apart of that 20% then consider yourself blessed. I was just given this little miracle, yet I was crying all the time and felt depressed and sad. I mean I cried over the fact that I was going to miss my doctor! Well she is pretty stinking awesome! But come on! Sometimes I just cried and I couldn't tell anyone why. I cried over people holding my baby too long (I'm not gonna lie I still want to do that) or cried because I felt like all I was, was a feeding machine and that was all I ever did! I enjoyed it yet didn't all at the same time. I could feel myself spiraling down more and more every day.

About 3 weeks or so after I had the baby I watched our church service from home and beautiful Lauren  sang this song. I was reminded once again that God was STILL the same God and he was going to get me through this just like he has gotten me through every other bump in the road, trial, battle, etc.... God was using those first few weeks (and still now) to teach me a lot of things. And every day I am trusting more and more in Him. Every day I have a reason to live and a reason to worship!!!

Now that song may not mean as much to you as it does to me but I just wanted to write this really just in case there are any others out there right now who are going through a battle or trial in their life. God is still the same God that he was yesterday. This is just a season in your life! And God is going to use this particular time in your life for a reason! I'm believing that everything that I have gone through, that God is just planting a seed in my life that I will later sow into someone else's life.

I just want you all to know I wrote this while the cleaning people were in my bathroom and I was just bawling away! lol So somebody, at least one person better like this post so I know that I didn't just make a fool out of myself for no reason! :)

Well anyways I have lots of funny and good stuff to update about my little man Cambric but he is now starting to wake so I'll have to post again soon! And I promise not to wait as long as I did this time!!! I know you all enjoy my funniness! ;)

But here are a few pictures to hold you over, which you have probably already seen....TOO BAD YOUR SEEING THEM AGAIN AND YOUR GONNA LOVE THEM! :)

Happy Boy!

Our Life!

He loves his tongue!

I just love this picture!

3 weeks old... 3 weeks tired

My little boy is 3 weeks old. Its just so crazy to think that 3 weeks ago tonight, I was sitting in the hospital room thanking God for such an amazing delivery and for a healthy sweet little boy! I got absolutely no sleep that night because I couldn't bare to see or hear him whimper in his little bassinet so I held him all night long.....And 3 weeks later I still haven't gotten any sleep and I still hold him all night long!

Ok thats not true. But I am REALLY tired and I do hold him a good bit during the night. Half because he whimpers when I put him down and I still can't stand that poor little sound (Im working on it), but the other reason is because I love just looking at him when he is zonked out. Troy and I made one cute little kid, and I just can't help but stare at him! ;)

Can I just take a moment to say what an amazing husband I have? You don't wanna hear? Well TOO BAD!  Troy gets up most nights with the baby during his awake time (usually 11-1) and lets me get a few hours of sleep where I can stretch out in the bed and not worry about Cambric. He knows just when I am about to lose my sanity from sleep deprivation and comes in the room and says "Here baby, let me have him for awhile." I sleep and then wake up (actually my boobs wake me up) and go in the living room to see Troy playing video games with Cambric up on his chest. It's sweet! I'm not ecstatic that he is already turning my baby into a gaming nerd, but I love to see them bond! I married me a good one!

Out of ALL the "advice" that I was given during my pregnancy, hearing "sleep now cause you will never sleep again" was the one I hated the worse. Probably because I heard it the most. Well now that I am not pregnant my advice to soon to be new moms would be... SLEEP NOW CAUSE YOU WILL NEVER SLEEP AGAIN! ;) No seriously I really did hate hearing that and I promise to try not to be one of those moms hat gives unwanted advice or comments because I know how overwhelming it can be and I know your hearing it from 100 other people. I would LOVE for people to ask me about things but I promise I will try to (I said try) not to annoy any of you soon to be mom's with my thoughts and advice. Because in the end it doesn't matter if you hear it from every single mom in the world, it means nothing till you have experienced it for yourself.

So I have a major pooper on my hands...or shall I say squirter! The boy has squirted poop on me so many times now that I just can't keep count. My mom says I must push the magic button when I'm wiping his bobo. I'm so happy I have the magic touch! Wa hoo! That's a sarcastic "wa hoo" if you didn't get that! He likes to pee though when Troy is changing him! Now that is funny too! IT would be more funny if it was poop but I will take him peeing on Troy. :)

Since we are talking about sleep though I'll tell you my story from a few nights ago..... So when he wakes up from sleeping I usually change him first because he doesn't like to be wet or dirty during a feeding. I was extremely sleepy and delirious and was in the middle of changing his diaper. I had good enough sense to hold my hand over his pee pee while wiping the bobo. Too bad I was so tired that when I started feeling something wet on my hand I moved it to see what was wet and therefore pee went everywhere. All on his clothes, all on his bassinet, but worst of all...all on his face. Oh you better believe that woke me up. His poor little mouth was wide open and I just knew it was going to shoot straight into his mouth. But thank the Lord it didn't!!!! Poor little guy! Like I said it was the middle of the night and I was very sleepy and delirious so I will not confirm or deny if I put Cambric back in his pee pee clothes. I mean it wasn't that much on his clothes, mainly just got the bassinet and his face....but like I said I will not confirm or deny if I was a bad sleepy mommy!

Well I hope to update yall more on the happenings of what is going on in the Tuttle household.... Although we are a sleepy home, our home has been filled with a lot of laughter these past 3 weeks! I just hope that soon that laughter will be because Cambric is doing funny stuff, and not because he is peeing and pooping on us! I can only hope!

I just cant "bear" to live without my mommy & daddy!

My little flyer