So after finding out I was pregnant I was just so ecstatic that thinking about the baby being a boy or girl didn't even cross my mind. All I could think about was "I can't believe the Lord has finally answered my prayers!!!" When people started asking me what I wanted I instinctively in my head just thought "I am just so thankful to be pregnant that I don't care." Well the more people asked me the more I started thinking about what I wanted. I felt horrible even thinking about wanting one gender over another. My heart always leaned towards girl because that is just what I always prayed for. When reading the scripture in Psalm about trusting in the Lord and delighting yourself in Him and He will give you the desires of your heart, I would aways pray for a little girl. I will have to say that one reason I was so determined to have a little girl is because well first they are so stinking cute, but also because everyone talked about imagining Troy and I with all girls and in the Tuttle family there has only been 1 girl born per generation. When I was told that while Troy and I were engaged (there was already the 1 girl born) I remember praying and telling God "Ok I know you don't work that way Lord. I am believing that you will give me the desire of my heart!" Well of course anytime I thought of nurseries or names or anything baby related it was always BOY.
One day I was driving home on 287 in Midlothian and referred to the baby as a him like I had done quite a bit while praying. I started crying at the thought of having a boy. And then I started crying even more that I was crying about having a boy and I felt so horrible. Then all the sudden this wave of peace just washed over me. I felt like God was saying "Camille! It doesn't matter what this baby is! You will love him or her with everything you have. They will be anointed & do something great in my name." At that moment I just knew I was going to have a boy! ha I don't know why that told me a boy but I can remember just coming home, continuing to feel that peace, and walking straight in the door and laying on the couch listening to worship music. I finally got up off the couch and started googling boy stuff! lol From there on out I hardly even thought about having a girl. I just "knew" this baby was a boy.
About a week before we found out what we were having, Troy was getting ready for bed and asked me what I thought we were going to have. This was only like our 10th conversation on this. haha When I said boy he said "Well I've been praying for a girl." When I asked him why, cause I knew he really wanted a boy, he said "Because I know how much having a girl means to you and I really want God to give you the desire of your heart." Don't you wish you had a hubby like mine? I mean it just was so sweet! I told him again about my "feeling" of the baby being a boy and that I felt that God had given me a peace about it either way.
When we went to the doctor a week later I got a ultrasound even though I was only 16 weeks pregnant because I was going to a new doctor. WHO I LOVE BY THE WAY!!! LIKE, SERIOUSLY LOVE HER! :) Anyways during the ultrasound I said "He really likes to move. He is so active. Oh I am so sorry, I don't know why but I just keep calling the baby a he." She didn't say anything for about 20 seconds and then she responded with "So what is HIS name going to be?" Troy & I looked at each other and we just kept saying "It's a boy?" And we giggled alot. And then I cried alot. They were very happy tears!!! I couldn't even begin to explain how excited I was. While my doctor finished up my ultrasound, I couldn't help but think back to that day, just a month or so earlier where I felt like God had gave me this peace about having a boy. And then I cried more! :) I would love to blame all the crying on pregnancy hormones but I have actually cried less since becoming pregnant! :/ ha
We had a gender reveal party the next night and had a fun time telling everyone our surprise with cupcakes that had blue icing inside. There are pictures under the "Pictures of Cambrick" link.
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| What's it gonna Bee? was our theme |
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| Me posting on FB & mom being goofy with the cupcake. |
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