Our Story



Hmmmm...How to start this? Get ready for the long story....


Troy and I have been married 5 years this February. When we first got married we were both just shy of 20& 22 years old. We said we would like to have a child by the time I turn 25. Well what do you know, I will be 25 the month after Cambrick comes into this world. Perfect timing huh? Well I wish it had all been so simple! ;)


We decided back right before my Papaw Smith passed away in 2010 that we wanted to start trying for a baby. Everyone around me got pregnant within a few months of trying so I just knew I was going to be pregnant by summer time. Summer came and went and no baby. God has been so good to us and everything has come so easily for Troy and I that I just couldn't understand why I wasn't pregnant yet. Although it had only been maybe half a year I started really struggling emotionally and spiritually. You may say "You had only been trying for half a year" but the devil really knew how to use all this to get to me. We mistakenly told people we were trying for a baby and had people constantly asking if we were pregnant yet. It was too much having to say no all the time so I decided to tell everyone that we decided to wait to have a baby until I graduated and got a teaching job. Which is probably really what we should have done! ha


Well as the months went by I grew more and more depressed and my relationship with God was sadly becoming strained. I couldn't help but wonder why God's timing wasn't my timing! I know I know, I was crazy and just letting the enemy continue to harden my heart and get under my skin. He had never been able to get to me this way before and now that he knew how, he was going to use the fact that it wasn't Gods timing yet to his advantage. Last summer (2011) I started having different issues and was beginning to believe that I was having fertility issues. It didn't help that I was in a wreck last summer and afterwards started having different pains in my pelvic area and was becoming irregular (I know you men reading really care about this) when I had never been before. My OB/GYN seemed concerned but after an exam she said everything was great. That kind of set my mind to ease and I just decided to put the baby making on the back burner for a while. Or at least that's what I was trying to tell myself.


Well July rolled around and I found out I had a teaching job! WA HOOO! Such an exciting time for Troy and I. All the hard work of the past 4 years was finally gonna pay off. So you would think that I would be on cloud 9 and baby fever would definitely be the last thing I was thinking about when Im about to start my first year of teaching. Nope, not me. I still wanted a sweet baby in our life. I kinda hit bottom there for about a month. I grew very depressed and through all this I hated telling Troy anything because I felt like I was just being stupid. I finally came clean and let him know all my feelings and what had been going on the last year and a half although he really already knew. We prayed that I would be able to give it all to God and that he would give me a peace about getting pregnant in God's timing. Well the prayer was easy to say but my heart was still not in it. I had my mom pray with me and my friend Lauren who lives down the street. The next night Troy and I prayed (I bawled) about it all and I really felt like for the first time in a year and a half I was ready to say "Ok God, this is going to happen in YOUR timing. If that's a year from now or 10 years from now I am ready to wait for YOU!"


During this month I had been having some pains that were similar to the few different times when I had cysts on my ovaries. About 3 weeks after putting it all in God's hands, I just happened to feel a lump in my breast. Of course I just knew the enemy was trying to attack me after finally giving it all to God. So I made a doctor's appt to check for cysts and the lump in my breast. When I went to the doctor I was ready to talk about the next step to check for infertility problems, especially since I was one again a week late. I had an ultrasound to check for the cysts and during so I heard the tech whisper "I should have taken a urine sample." Saw my doctor right after and poured out my heart and told her all my concerns and then to my surprise she responds with "Well we saw a little something in your uterus. I will have to do further blood work but I am pretty sure your pregnant." I was in shock. If you have ever heard my high pitched voice that all my family makes fun of, you can imagine me sounding like that and repeatedly asking "Really? Seriously?" over and over.


Cool thing about it all...After doing all the calculations, we realized that "the week" was the week I truly put all this in God's hands!!! Yes that same week that I prayed with Troy, my mom, and my neighbor Lauren. So just like I hear MY story every year on my birthday, that's the story that Cambrick will get to hear every year on his birthday! hehe ;)


FYI Just in case you were wondering...3 lumps were found in my breast that had been there before the baby so I had a breast biopsy and after a small scare everything came back benign.  Just have to keep an eye on them. Praise Jesus! :)

2 comments:

  1. I'm inspired by you're story. I have kinda been going through the same thing. I know I need to let go and wait on God's timing, but you know that is so hard! It's encouraging to hear someone else going through the same thing. Thanks for sharing and letting me read your story!

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    1. I'm so glad that my story was encouraging to you. I'm always hesitant about what I write (especially this) because I never know if others really care or how they will percieve things. It's encouraging to me that others enjoy it & that they are able to relate or get something from it!

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